November 30 REBLOGATHON… My Love Story
I feel a little sad at this being the last blog post for a while❤️ I’ve enjoyed myself immensely and want to say a big thankyou to my lovely Divine friend Ka who’s idea it was for this REBLOGATHON. AND to Rara for her dedication to the cheer peppers! I take a bow to both you ladies and hope we keep meeting here as we blog, sharing our stories.
I’ll be back though, just less frequently and share my continued love story, not just the one I have with my love, Tom but the one I have with myself. I suppose you can say they were always merged but now our story is truly merged.
So Mark, thankyou for your comments yesterday, which had me murmuring under my breath… again! Well, obviously there are still remnants of my wall, built up from when I was a child and teenager. Although I had a happy childhood, I remember feeling I didn’t get enough attention, or enough love and recognition in my own right! I remember crying a lot at night, being left alone to pout!
This was one of the reasons at the age of 17, I decided to leave home and go out into the world to explore and discover people and things that I fitted in with. 10 years later I met Tom, we stayed together because we fit so well together! We truly recognised each other. Liking and caring for one another that didn’t take long before it turned into a deep love affair.
I say Tom recognised me on many levels, but he was very clear in telling me the first time I stormed off into my bedroom to pout (for attention), that he wouldn’t come and follow me again, as this was childish and uncalled for!
I know that our parents and relationships all do their very best to love and give attention when they can… but when you are a growing child you need to hear a little more about how loved you are, how special you are and how life is about you exploring and discovering your own love to nurture yourself.
This would have helped me from thinking the very worst about myself! From thinking I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t likeable enough or not right enough!
Last night, I did a bit of looking back and feeling into my broken heart and definitely felt the pain that was still there. The pain that has been triggered with Toms transition and the children’s rejection… whatever reason they give.
I still can’t believe it because our whole life has been to focus on creating harmony in the family… and surely this can’t just disappear in the blink of an eye! So here IAM with myself, breathing into the pain, the rejection and remembering that my feeling of lack… of love, attention and recognition is far from the truth.
This remembering of my truth seems to be dissolving the last remnants of my fear, soothing my pain and heartbreak. It is bringing me closer to my truth, the truth that IAM love, IAM special and I don’t need anyone to tell me this. I feel I can relax now and allow myself to fully feel the love IAM and allow it to guide me further.
As I continue to breath and feel, I feel a shift from me to the pain and heartbreak from Tom, which he felt because of his own father not loving and giving him enough attention as a little boy. AND again a shift to the pain and heartbreak of Tom’s children who both seem to be feeling the lack of love from not having their father around when they were little.
I know something huge started to shift and heal not only me but our whole family! Today I’ve been feeling the emptiness that always seems to precede the feeling of completeness, of love. The love that IAM and we all are and I hope with all my heart everyone feels this shift and can find their own way to happiness now.
Tom and I are both doing great and our story continues. Today for the final November reblog I found the post I made this year A Love Story like No Other. I hope you enjoy it and can feel the love, we wish everyone to feel.
I thought I’d add my life chat today, breathing into your heartache and pain! I wanted to share with others my inner journey I took last night! I hope you relax with me and enjoy.
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Ah Barbara, what a journey this all is. And the pain seems never ending. But truthfully, when I finally saw its conclusion I could see why we go through so much as children. I didn’t understand at first, I told Spirit I can heal the world through those very children. Go to the schools and develop training that gives them coping strategies and allow them to express any problems at home. And the silence from Spirit was deafening. So ego me though that must be acceptance of the very idea so I went in deeper…and suddenly it clicked. Could you imagine going to a parent and saying your parenting skills aren’t up to scratch, you have to change who you are. I’d probably be in jail, hospital or both 🤣 Then Spirit told me why children need to love and look up to their parents, take on board those bits that the parent hasn’t resolved within themselves yet so unintentionally pass them on. It is that very act of all that pain that makes us ‘us’. Look at anyone that has been through a horrible time in so many things…relationships especially, they come out the other side with much more empathy, compassion and love BECAUSE of those very things. By going through those opposites of anger, hate and pain. We spend a lifetime with those fears from our parents…but…they are the making of us. If life was just a walk in a field of flowers, yes we would know a love, a gentle overall love to the world. But, and as you now know, it isn’t until we lose that love that its impact becomes truly known and we experience so much empathy, compassion and love by going through it. The parents do give us much love, but it is in fact the pain of rejection in whatever form it takes lays the basis for us to understand what love truly is. It is a hard road kind lady, but it is given with a very great love so that you can know truthfully an even greater love. When you touch it, every step, every stumble will show you a perfection like nothing else. But in the meantime dear lady, a very big hug from me until that beautiful understanding in your heart opens to something so profound. Your going to be ok 😀❤️🙏🏽
As always a beautiful response, Thankyou Mark❤️ I understand it’s all for a reason, to feel our own love and be able to watch from the sideline as others follow… and now we can enjoy a walk in the flower fields just because we can!
IAM also understanding it’s not up to us to change another’s life, but we are coming upon a time where we can now apply new practices for the ones who made it through! For the ones who went to make it through! Today is another down day! There must be something in the sir as I visited my friend to drop off groceries and she just started balling her eyes out at her situation… being on her own! She’s had enough!
So all we can do is breath and hold our vision high of living in harmony and unity! Right mark? Sending you love x
That encounter is a beautiful sign dear lady, you give from what you have become and she can feel that. And in doing so you gave her permission to ‘let go’ because you are becoming so loving. That is that love I speak of. You are that love and you just being you are giving that out. Yes, your tired and in truth you would love to ‘let go’ and feel better too. But if you look back over that encounter, you will have felt good in helping too. That love is always a two way street even though sometimes hard to decipher. The more open we become, the more open we become. Like attracts like. And in your case time seems to take its own sweet time in healing from such a grief. Big hugs Barbara, we will get there most certainly. Breathe and know there are cheers coming through, Tom knows your heart and courage. Be brave my friend, a beauty beyond words await you 😀❤️🙏🏽
Barbara, the pain of our childhood and the pain from our lives is so deep that truly it has no end. Yet the ascension process is to transmute all that pain and sorrow and blackness into joy and love and peace. It is a long process and it seems something new crops up when we aren’t looking and again we face another facet of the diamond that yet has turned brilliant. No regrets for without the shadow side of my life, I would not be find tuned into the brilliant light I am today.
A few nights ago I was curled up on my bed crying as I sought God saying over and over, “God have mercy on us!”. My heart was feeling the pain of the world and I couldn’t bear it. Tears ran down my face as I rocked and cried and felt suffering unimaginable. How this Planet and all Sentient Beings are in need of healing and all I keep getting this too shall be gone with “energy”. It’s the how part I don’t know.
Keep shining your LIGHT. Between now and the total healing of this world, we must contribute to the Galactic Frequency of Love to annihilate the dark. Once there is Light, there is no darkness. Sending you much love!!! xoxoxo
Beautifully said Amy… I also feel to just keep going, shining my light, doing my best following my heart and soul! We are seeing the change… and will keep seeing more❤️ Thankyou amy for your loving presence… we can do this, no matter what! Bring it on🕺💃🎶
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