A Gift of Love, Infinitely Deep…
You are my shining king
together forever to help
each other reach the
infinite depth only true love
can touch & dissolve
the wall we build up
within as children
to shield us from pain
The layers of fear
we wrap ourselves in
after dear ones
leave or replace us
not care or ignore us
having sensed our
& innocent love
We close off our heart
blocking our own loving
& Divine connection
as we believe our love
is the cause of our
pain & loneliness
feeling not understood
unwanted & not enough
We venture out
rigid with fear
all spontaneity gone
judging & pushing
looking for someone
to fill the emptiness within
to love and care for us
like no other
If we’re lucky or even smart
we can learn to love & care
to value & honour
slowly & gently
coming closer together
gaining trust to dissolve
away the walls of fear
It takes special people
to recognise the broken
yourself or another
to cherish unconditionally
& guide one back within
to a source of love
that waits patiently
to gift you with love
Thankyou for your gift of love
many years falling deeper
in love with ourselves
until the final gift
to fully experience
pure love from within
infinitely one together❤️
A dedication to my love, Tom Franken
©Barbara Franken 2022
Well, what an awakening journey this is turning out for everyone, especially me! Who would have thought I would spend so many years spiralling within, for me to sense that loving presence I know waits to fully integrate with me, the Human identity. Closer and closer I keep returning, looking at the child who began to build her protection wall so many years ago!
I ask her to express her pain so that I can fully understand and dissolve the barrier… but still not quite there! I would like to believe the fleeting feeling of complete love, joy & peace I sometimes feel, will one day remain with me forever. I trust it will at the most perfect time.
Thanks to our Mark’s stories on his blog Healing Your Heart From Within, in particular the post Miracles Inside Us All, and after rereading his reply to my comment… maybe 100 times! I finally received a clear knowing of how I closed down at quite a young age after loved ones left me in emotional pain, with me believing I wasn’t wanted, my love wasn’t enough, I wasn’t important, not recognised etc etc. So I became fearful and projected this brokenness, this poor me attitude onto my world.
Thank goodness my love came along who had the maturity and wisdom to recognise I had the same sort of brokenness he himself felt, and together, over the years we have given each other the love that would finally allow us both to reach our higher potentials.
It was in Tom’s recent transition that he gave us both a final gift of freedom from our fears, from the untruths we had both taken on.
It only took him a few hours to get word to us of how he was free and victorious and a little later that first evening, after falling asleep, I was awoken by an almighty thunder bolt and lightening bright noise in the middle of my back. Light seemed to shatter within my whole body. I screamed from fright and my family came running in to see what had happened! I knew I had experienced some kind of release. Tom’s gift of release to me.
I feel more at peace now, rather than feeling alone, sad and lost without Tom. Although I still feel conflicted as to my value, love and magnificence! I understand it intellectually, but still need to fully feel its truth now IAM on my own in a scary world! (so to speak!)
I know my younger self and Tom are all part of ONE Consciousness, not separate from me and therefore always with me. I know IAM magnificent and am giving myself all the time needed to feel fully loved, brave and valuable from my purest loving IAM presence.
If I feel a little sad in my missing Tom, he quickly reaches out by either playing music with beautiful words, a flyby from a seagull (his sign for freedom), a sweet & high pitched birdsong or I sense something that reminds me of his smile and unconditional love.
IAM getting there. Doing my best and love you all my friends❤️
With much gratitude to all my friends and family for staying close and inspiring me to be my best self at this time. Feeling it all, the sadness and the joy and IAM trusting my life to continue to be a celebration that reaches higher and higher altitudes. Allowing me to birth myself anew and New Earth in quite an exciting and unknown way.
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Kudos on your deepening love and awareness Barbara. 🙏❣️
It seems a never ending journey, but IAM driven quite passionately from within to feel it all and get excited for our future presence🕺💃 Thankyou Brad for walking with us on this path, it makes such a difference to have each other!❤️ Much love and gratitude.
Thank you for sharing your journey in such a beautiful, deep, vulnerable way. God bless you!
AND God bless you Jan for being such a beautiful presence of love and celebration! Grateful for your friendship❤️ Much love x
A beautiful poem dear lady, and a part of your healing in expressing it all. Not an easy thing but in doing so you slowly resolve you and that love that has been tattered and torn through life in so many ways. And a beautiful Tom came into your life so that you could feel love, resolve it, feel it and most certainly touch it in every way possible…except one, your love. Tom was your guide (as you were to him), your experience in it all as he lovingly poked and prodded your love, found those parts of you that still hurt, still had that childhood fear that you carried forever. But it has great purpose, in your long relationship with Tom it has made you codependent on your love for him and his to you. But that is important because with a great love he has now released this world so that you can now release that dependency and find and understand your love. You will now go through this pain off loss trying to find the why of its pain so that you can understand that still missing piece, see why it leaves such an ache within. Find that ‘fear’ in that loss, look back to that childhood and see the ‘why’ it left you with. In there is your answer. And it will take time, it is meant to as you slowly resolve your heart and find you within it. And I promise that it does have a great purpose, when you see it and resolve it all…you will understand every step, every moment you have gone through has had an incredible purpose. All, and I mean all, even those painful parts, and especially them have guided you to find that unconditional love by going through the conditional love first. And you will see its beauty so powerfully that anyone that I ask that has gone through this, all say they would never change a step, not an instant of all that they have felt…because they now know what it is for, can see that it all does create something wonderful. A beauty beyond words. I can barely describe it my friend, you will see every moment come together like a diamond, shining no matter which way you turn it, its rainbow colors for all to see that is the result of you finally, truly standing in your love, God’s love, Tom’s love…unconditionally…in its understanding. Big hugs dear lady, I pray that your path finds that light…and it will ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
Thankyou so much Mark for your loving and wise words, long comments that play with my mind😳🤣😂 It’s been so many years observing the young child who closed down because she was so badly hurt. No memory of what really happened, only a knowing that I was taken advantage of and left… which repeated many times until I met Tom, whom I felt safe with to unravel myself deeper and who knows.. maybe now IAM dependent only on myself and hold the wisdom I’ve remembered IAM, the little child will finally open up and express herself to me. So so grateful for your words and guidance Mark. I hope you are taking care of yourself, breathing well and enjoying life❤️ Much love x
Such a beautiful and heartfelt tribute to Tom and your own journey. Thank you for sharing your love, your vulnerability and your willingness to explore this pathway to peace which is ongoing. Much love, light and healing sent to you dear Barbara. 💗🙏
Ah thankyou my friend Miriam… always a delight to feel your kind and loving presence here and read your lovely words. It’s so nice expanding our tribe here to march together into the unknown. Sending you love and blessings x
Beautiful tribute to Tom. The courage it takes with our journey afterwards.when my partner passed I wrote a poem, “Grief is a gift.” I loved my partner even more after his death. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us. It speaks of your strength. I know a bit of your journey as every grief is a fingerprint. Consider yourself hugged.
As if we couldn’t love them more… but we do seem to don’t we, full of gratefulness for a life shared, which actually continues in an inter dimensional way! Forging new paths of pure loving consciousness. So grateful for your loving wisdom and friendship too dear Joseph, thankyou for hugs I feel deeply❤️ much love x
Having a little journey myself dear lady, testing those waters called life too. Another post is brewing I think 😀. But I hope your journey touches that place of peace inside, shows you ‘you’ and that very profound love inside us all. Big hugs my friend, and lots of that energy called love coming over to join with many others ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
Thankyou Mark❤️ Love and hugs received as it helps pick me up at times I find myself lying in a sea of broken heart wall! What an incredible journey and I have no idea how its going, just following my feelings. Much love x
It takes a while dear lady because grief is so close to our hearts. But it will, of all things, let go of so many things as we see what really has meaning in our lives and what doesn’t. Big hugs my friend, and much love too ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
Dearest Barbara, your poem so touched my heart.. What a gift Tom has given you. And you to him..
Never forget your extraordinary journey has been about discovering yourselves..
I had tears while reading, I’m sure too your own emotional waters will still emerge to keep cleansing.
Grief is a personal journey, and I have as yet most gratefully have not had to cope with such a loss as you have dear Barbara.
You love shows and shines Barbara , Sending you hugs and so much love, 💗