As the weeks, months and years roll quickly by, we observe how the world around us widens the separation of people, organisations, countries, opinions, beliefs… all warring against each other. Extreme opposites and deep conflict is being forged. Yes – No, Light – Dark, Good – Bad, Right – Wrong, This – That, Mine – Yours… each side adamant they are correct!
So who is correct, which side do we choose, which way do we go?
Everyone is correct according to their own perceptive and we don’t have to choose either way because what we are all beginning to see is how, we have built our systems and governments based on selfishness, greed and power, using fear and lack beliefs to control and manipulate the people.
In order to survive this ultimate separation and spare ourselves from a violent end it is essential each person wakes up to see the game we all chose to play a part in, in order to experience everything and remember that no-one can control or manipulate another with untruths of fear and lack unless we remain a victim, powerless, asleep to the truth of who each truly is… a loving and powerful Divine being who can now stand tall and choose for oneself.
Choosing for oneself means choosing love. Love has no sides, no conflict and honours all.
Each weekend, IAM re-publishing Awakening Stories my Divine friends and I wrote a few years back, for you to read now and be inspired to wakeup from any Earthly struggle or fear and live your life consciously in all ease and grace as the multi-dimensional magnificent being of light you truly are!
This week’s True Awakening Story has been written by Shree who shares how she choose for herself and time to begin uncovering her fears…
The Tower card from tarot decks usually signify an event or time in one’s life when the Universe and their life stream / soul / Spirit decide it’s time for the individual to wake up. It may present itself as a traumatic event or a time in which everything seems to be falling apart.
I also believe that it can present itself as an inner turmoil – like thunder rumbling within the darkened sky heralding a major storm, like the turbulent sea in the midst of such a storm, with strong winds forming huge crashing waves as we grip the edge of the little row boat we seem to find ourselves in. And, I think that is when we come to certain major cross-roads in our journey, a place where we decide which way we are going to go – sometimes consciously but before that mostly unconsciously.
Most times we aren’t sure what we are doing, we’re scared, confused and we stumble along in blind panic trying our best to talk ourselves back into some semblance of calm. Sometimes, there is a voice within us that feels like the glow from a candle still alight even with the raging storm all around us, nudging us towards a certain choice or action. Either way, these times in our lives give us the opportunities to do what can’t not be done. The choice though is always ours.
This is my story.
The very first major experience that I had which I can recall wasn’t too long ago – in the grand scheme of things anyway. It was about 10 years ago, in a marriage that wasn’t working out too well, I fell into some sort of clinical depression. The reason why I say “some sort” is because I didn’t see anyone about it.
What I did have involved “starting” my day going to work in the morning, coming home at five in the evening, crashing into bed till 10, staying awake the whole night till it was time to get to work either aimlessly surfing the net to escape reality or listening to music while getting lost in a fantasy world, smoking a lot more than was normal, when eating junk food instead of actual meals seemed easier, when taking a shower seemed like a major undertaking and therefore going days without one and actually feeling your heart shrivel up like a dried up prune.
It was easier to not talk to the man I had married, in fact it felt peaceful. It was easier not talking to anyone because it took more energy than I could spare AND when you spend eight to nine hours a day talking to patients you just don’t have it in you to talk anymore, or that’s what I told myself. If I had to describe the two years in one sentence it would be that it felt like I was living in a thick, mucoid fog, feeling the core of myself shriveling up.
In April of 2006 I left. I had to. I couldn’t not leave. It was for both our sakes. I stumbled along the path I chose. It felt as if a horrible weight had lifted off my chest and being; and the times when I wondered if it had been the right choice, my palpitating heart and quickened respiration told me otherwise.
It was liberating and at the same time it felt like I was still groping around in the dark. Looking back now, I feel it was like being born again. It was an opportunity of getting used to living life in the material sense – relearning how to forge friendships, being responsible for the daily things we do, becoming financially responsible, and at the same time it should have been a time for healing.
How did I do? Well, that’s the thing isn’t it. When we aren’t really sure or aware of what’s going on within and around us, not truly aware, we sort of grope around in the dark, bumping into things, tripping over things, falling down, getting up and just…moving until at one point we fall back into a rut because we just don’t know any better. That is just what I did!
Fast forward to 2010 and Life nudged me along towards an open door. It wasn’t one that was fully ajar, I don’t think it happens that way. I feel it opens, maybe half way allowing us a peek at what lies behind the door, an idea of what it is offering and then waits to see if we choose to open it wider and walk through. That’s free will.
I had my first Tarot card reading and suddenly I had (again, I feel it was more an unconscious choice going along with the flow of Life rather than a conscious one) walked into and onto people and opportunities which allowed to rekindle the interest I had in all things spiritual. You see, I had always harboured strong feelings towards this, this which I used to call “the occult and religion”. I loved listening to stories about other religions, spiritual teachings, the occult, life’s mysteries and the like. I had even bought a Tarot deck a long time ago but for some reason found it a little too complicated at that time.
In 2010…I was ready. In 2010, I unknowingly made the choice to follow the path which would then take me to that point in time when I would finally awaken from the deep, deep slumber I was in. To finally open my eyes groggily at first and then with more clarity to actually start seeing with an awakened sense of awareness.
Some people who awaken have very drastic shifts, some like me sort of gently flow into it. Some people have sudden, awesome experiences while some like me seem to gather things gently. Some seem to blaze through once they’ve had an experience which awakens them to themselves and some like myself seem to have these “start- stop” phases intertwined with “plateaus” and then what seems like a “downward spill”.
The thing is, I have learned that it really doesn’t matter because the over all effect is that once you choose to wake up and have successfully (and might I add a little stubbornly) rubbed the sleep from your eyes, once you’ve chosen to reach that tipping point of being more awake than asleep…it’s all systems go! The type of systems may be different for each person but at some point you will notice that you can’t not be unaware anymore. Sure, at times it takes conscious effort, but the sum total of your experiences will be awareness.
In 2012 there was another shift which happened. It’s as if my soul didn’t allow me to be at peace until I did something drastic.
In 2010, I was working in the corporate world as a Medical Manager for a Pharmaceutical company. The pay was good, the people I worked with were nice and I enjoyed some parts of my job…enough to allow me to go to work every day until at one point in time when I felt something wasn’t right. I didn’t seem to want to go to work anymore. I felt restless and uncomfortable; and the more I felt it the more I thought it was due to the change in the internal environment at work. I attributed it to everything else but a change in me.
You see I didn’t sit in silence and contemplate this feeling. Instead I panicked, pulled by the tide of “I must get out of here!!” and that is what I did. Two years later, I looked for another job and agreed to the first opportunity that came to me. Within 3 months of joining the new company (also as a Medical Manager) , the feeling of being trapped came back …with a bigger bang.
In my own way, I think this was when I sat down – maybe not so much in silence as being a little more quiet- and contemplated about why I was feeling this. As the months passed I must have listened to the voice in me and the more I listened the more it became apparent that I needed to do something that I wouldn’t have thought of doing normally. What came out of this was that I left my job. I couldn’t not leave my job because that wasn’t an option…well it was but then I’d have to live a very uncomfortable life if I had chosen to stay.
In September of 2012, I made a choice, this time a more conscious choice to leave the corporate world and go back to practicing medicine on a part time basis even if it meant a significant pay cut. It was a conscious choice to give myself the time and the opportunity to take a journey within myself, to explore new ventures in writing and art and to see what happened as life unfolded.
It has been a year and 4 months now since that time and I am grateful that I made the choice. It worked for me. I am being given opportunities to write, to discover my ability in creating mandala, to face a lot of my fears, to experience and realize – to live a life of awareness. Does this mean that I’m blazing through life with everything falling into place just as I envisioned it?
No! BUT what it means is that I don’t stumble as often as I used to and when I do stumble it’s because of my fears and my stubborn mind. It means that I’m discovering things even when I do stumble and that it isn’t so much of a hassle anymore but an opportunity. It means that at times things are as it always was but how I see it is different because it’s perceived differently. It means that I take the conscious effort to question myself or a challenging situation when it presents itself. It means that I had to slowly learn to not be too hard on myself when I do slip. It means feeling disappointed, frustrated and at times wanting to just give everything up and go back to that deep slumber and yet taking the time to breathe and to embrace even this as an opportunity to shine. It means giving up on the idea of comparing my “progress” with the next person’s because that just is not possible – at all.
There is no comparison and if you have come from a background where that has always been an issue, it’s one of the hardest things to overcome. It can be, because I’m half way up that wall. Sometimes, I slide then I catch myself before I slip right down, because you see…being awakened and going along this journey of choice into awareness IS that.
It IS to catch yourself before you slip back into unconsciousness. It IS to catch yourself by pausing, breathing, reflecting, centering yourself to your truth and getting back into the flow of things from a place that is calmer.
My journey continues and though it is far from “perfect”, it is as perfect as it should be for me…and as it is for each every one of us. No one gets left behind and that is something which can’t be negotiated.
You can read more of Shree’s journey on her website…
Introduction to Awakening
One heart at a time, people are naturally Awakening after a long and hard Human experience. You are remembering that you are so much more than your physical Human body, mind and the five senses you use. You know that this Awakening is part of a natural cycle that at times you think you are going nowhere, even backwards but you trust the Divine part of you has everything perfectly worked out.
You are part of a grand natural Awakening of Humankind, part of an expanded cosmic happening. The integration of your Humanness and your Divineness, allowing the full blossoming and Enlightenment of you… the DivineHumanBeing to come together and consciously live on Earth as a Sovereign and Magnificent Being; a Living Ascended Master and Creator.
Affects and Changes of the Awakening Earth and the Human Being
The Earth and Humankind are all part of a Natural Shift of Consciousness that is occurring now. Our solar system finds itself surrounded by a higher vibrational energy; a new energy that we have called forth in our declaration for no more fear, greed and power-mongering. It is an energy that resonates with LOVE. Love that Humans have learned to FEEL here on Earth. A love that creates DivineHumanBeings, allowing them to live in a peaceful and harmonious surrounding on Earth. This new energy, of intense light actually affects the magnetic make-up of our whole solar system. Creating intense magnetic storms on our sun, where strong solar flares reach the Earths orbit and interfere with the magnetics within the Earth and the Human Being.
The Human body contains millions of tiny magnetic particles that interconnect through Human antennas to the Earth’s magnetic field, enabling the Human to receive and transmit consciousness which influence the physical body and all its internal systems.
The interference of the magnetic field is causing a cleansing effect on Earth, physical shifting and shaking the earth and her inhabitants, creating unusual weather patterns and within the Human Being; cleansing people from all their fears and yesterdays. It is actually the most beautiful gift that we can receive.
Intense light to naturally awaken our consciousness, changing our DNA and crystalising our molecules. Our inner light, our being is being ignited anew, clearing our body of past debris, burning away everything that no longer serves us, leaving nothing but pure love and passion within each Human Being and the Earth.
During this shift in consciousness… our Awakening is affecting our mental, emotional and physical bodies, pulling us all ways and putting us through some uncomfortable and painful times. Not only are we integrating and releasing all our own past life patterns and karma that no longer serves us, but that of all our ancestors that have lived before us. Our Body Consciousness; Body, Mind and Spirit is finding a new balance.
It is most important neither to fight nor to give in, but to trust that everything is all so perfect. This is our journey that we have chosen to live now so let’s enjoy the ride and allow our Embodied Ascension to happen quite naturally.
Physical… Aches and pains in the joints, especially neck, shoulders and back, heat sensations beyond the menopause, feeling hot and cold, feeling dizzy and shaky, vertigo, ringing in the ears, nauseous, itchy skin, red patchy skin especially the face, exhaustion and feeling tired, waking up a lot, headaches and migraine, stomach aches and indigestion, no appetite, extremes of diarrhea and constipation, eating a lot, heart palpitations, irregular heartbeat
Emotional… Crying, deep sadness, confused, nervousness, passionless
Mental… Anxious, intense dreaming, loneliness, not thinking straight, losing words, depressed
Barbara’s suggestions for more comfort
Consciously breathing in the new energy, especially in painful areas, 10 mins. a day, healthy daily eating of protein, good fats, lots of fruit and veg,
drink plenty of fresh water, moderate use of caffeine, coffee, tea and alcohol, positive and loving self talk, soaking the body in Epsom salts and lavender oil, walking in nature or some form of gentle exercise you enjoy 20 mins a day, sleep a lot… napping through the day if possible, trust yourself… even when doubt tries to creep into your mind
Barbara Franken… Creative Visionary & Master Creator
Inspiring New Energy Consciousness & Multi-Dimensional Living
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I love this post, Barbara. I have quoted you and referred my readers to your blog today. Thank you for the inspiration. Yes, we DO have a choice and there ARE absolutes! <3
Thankyou so much Jan for resonating and sharing our Awakening stories, the world needs all the inspiration it can get! much love, Barbara x
Barbara, I too have gone on a journey toward awakening. It has come in stages and on certain topics or areas of my life. It is a lifelong pursuit that I started decades ago. I have changed my life dramatically a number of times, but I am still no Buddha. Thank you for this enriching and uplifting, and honest, post. Hugs to you and love to all.
So lovely to feel your presence here Beth, yes many of us began waking up to the truth many moons ago… shining our light in our daily lives… making a difference as we all diligently take our own famous steps! AND finding each other, to support and encourage each other to walk through ‘the seemingly’ mess of the world, knowing all is well and love will win! Thankyou for your kind and encouraging words, much love to you x