A Series of Awakening Stories…
As mass Human consciousness find themselves in the midst of naturally awakening, IAM inspired to re-publish the true Awakening stories of my Divine friends who share their very personal stories in the hope to inspire YOU to fully awaken to your own unique loving magnificence and not hide yourself away because you don’t feel you fit into society.
You were not meant to fit into society… you were meant to stand out and shine your magnificence!
It’s time for everyone to see the Human game for what it is… experience… for you to realise the truth of your powerful and magnificent part in the world. It’s time for you to shine and live your happy dream right here on Earth.
This week’s True Awakening Story has been written by Manny who shares his story about hating and hiding himself away from society because he was gay…
Like many gay men, I grew up ashamed of who I was thanks to society’s insistence that being gay is one of the worst fates for a boy. You are taught that being gay lessens you as a man that you’re abnormal, and that God hates you. Growing up gay can be one of the most traumatic experiences because you learn to hate a part of yourself that you are powerless to change. I hoped, wished, and prayed that I’d one day no longer be gay. Hope was lost, wishes never came true, and God stayed silent.
Things began to change for me when the United States 2012 presidential political campaigns started. I identified myself as a Republican so I was paying close attention to the debates of the candidates who were hoping to become the Republican presidential candidate that would run against Obama. During a debate on September 22, 2011 (see videos below), a gay soldier serving in Iraq posed a question to the candidates about gays in the military and boos started coming from the Republican audience. I sat there in disbelief as none of the potential candidates on stage stood up for the soldier. At that moment, I decided I could no longer claim to support a party that promised to take a step back in terms of gay rights and it was then that I decided I would no longer remain silent on the issue of equal rights for gay people. Even though it would still be a few months before I started coming out, I started to become more vocal on these issues.
I searched Youtube for a video of the soldier being booed at the debate and I stumbled upon a video of another soldier who came out to his dad just a couple of days earlier when Don’t Ask Don’t Tell was repealed. I admired his courage and I followed his channel. Seeing how much happier he was after letting the world know he was gay inspired me to begin turning my life around. I was 25 and miserable that I was just letting my life pass me by and not really doing anything with it. I had resigned myself to living a sedentary lifestyle and possibly face an early death due to my obesity (it may sound dramatic, but those were my feelings).
It was incredibly frightening, but I decided it was time to stop hiding myself, hating myself, and being ashamed. There was a time when I would have never checked into Walt Disney Concert Hall or the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion on social media. What would people say if they saw that I went to the LA Phil or the LA Opera? I couldn’t risk letting the world suspect how much I loved classical music and opera. I loved bowties, but would the other men start to wonder about me if I wear one? I was embarrassed to run because of how I looked. I was convinced everyone would laugh at me if I tried to run. I hated myself so much for being a coward and preferred the safety of hiding and isolation. It was incredibly isolating and exhausting having to hide the things you loved out of fear, so I let the veil fall and what followed is the most incredible time of my life.
In 2013, I participated in many running events not caring if I would be ridiculed or not. I lost the shame of running and I let the world know I did it while listening to opera on my headphones. What I thought people would find alienating, they instead found interesting. I stopped trying to be “normal” and people began to not only accept me but love my unique qualities. I became their go-to person for questions on classical music and opera. I discovered that people weren’t laughing at the overweight runner, they were inspired by him. I love the fact that someone can look at me and believe that they can run a marathon if I can run one. I went from feeling out of place in a group of runners, to now answering their questions and giving advice about running.
It was so incredibly inspiring to see people accepting these other aspects of my life that I decided I wanted to come out as publicly as I could and I did it on March 17, 2013 when I ran my first marathon, the Los Angeles Marathon. In the running community I had found an incredibly supportive community and I felt so at peace with myself while running that wanted my coming out to coincide with my first marathon. It was the perfect day to do it.
I felt vulnerable exposing my true self for people to judge. However, seeing so many people love the real me is priceless and the most rewarding feeling ever. I was so overwhelmed when I crossed the finish line of the LA Marathon and saw all the messages of support I was receiving through various social avenues. Now the relationships I have with people are genuine and I don’t have to worry about losing them over some secret of mine. So this stage in my life was about dismantling the façades I had fabricated in my life to keep me safe from insult and ridicule, and this is when I realized that mask I wore to protect myself from insults also kept me from being loved for whom I really a was.
Once I embarked on this long journey of accepting who I am, great things followed. My self-loathing began to subside, and the faint and almost extinguished will to live inside me began to shed light on the positives in my life. I saw hope’s nascent flicker and it was enough to ignite in me the courage necessary to pursue the things I loved. I learned to explore art freely; I lost my fear of enjoying classical music openly and proudly; and lost the self-shame keeping me from joining the wonderful groups that introduced me to the world of fitness. Accepting my homosexuality has been the most liberating experience. If being gay is the worst things that could have happened to me, then I am very optimistic about the rest of my life. Once I realized people would judge me regardless, their opinions lost bearing on my sense of self-worth. What if I love the arts, design, cooking, and clothes? Will people think I’m gay? I am, so go ahead!
I am deeply appreciative of everyone in my life. In one way or another every person has gotten me through my most difficult moments and has shaped me into the man I am today. I cannot change the past and I cannot deny the fact that mistakes are as much a contributing factor to who I am today as any other choice I’ve ever made. I’ve learned to love myself with all the defects that I may come with and only in this way have I been able to work towards the life I was meant to live.
Coming out, even in today’s society, can be a very frightening experience, but at the end of the day it can be one of the most wonderful and rewarding ones that the straight world would be hard pressed to find its equivalence.
I realize being openly gay is only a part of my own awakening experience, however I do feel like it is the keystone. All the other aspects of my life that I hid were somehow tied to this one secret in my life. I felt like if I shared any part of who I was with the world, it would somehow lead to suspicion that I way gay. Now that this one part of my life of which I was most ashamed of is out in the open, I’ve felt the freedom to pursue all the things in life that I enjoy.
The best part is that not only do you feel liberated, but you feel this abundance of energy that you wish to share with those around you. I am now involved with a few LGBT organizations including an alumni association from my university where I mentor LGBT undergraduates. I’ve been able to take people to concerts and introduce them to the wonderful world of orchestral music. Even in running, I love sharing advice, help out with social media for my running club, and I’m in charge of coordinating where hundreds of runners meet every week.
We’ve all got something unique we can share with the world and it will be a better place because of it. Don’t hide it. Let it flourish!
You can read more about Manny’s journey on his website http://emantable.com
Introduction to Awakening
One heart at a time, people are naturally Awakening after a long and hard Human experience. You are remembering that you are so much more than your physical Human body, mind and the five senses you use. You know that this Awakening is part of a natural cycle that at times you think you are going nowhere, even backwards but you trust the Divine part of you has everything perfectly worked out.
You are part of a grand natural Awakening of Humankind, part of an expanded cosmic happening. The integration of your Humanness and your Divineness, allowing the full blossoming and Enlightenment of you… the DivineHumanBeing to come together and consciously live on Earth as a Sovereign and Magnificent Being; a Living Ascended Master and Creator.
Affects and Changes of the Awakening Earth and the Human Being
The Earth and Humankind are all part of a Natural Shift of Consciousness that is occurring now. Our solar system finds itself surrounded by a higher vibrational energy; a new energy that we have called forth in our declaration for no more fear, greed and power-mongering. It is an energy that resonates with LOVE. Love that Humans have learned to FEEL here on Earth. A love that creates DivineHumanBeings, allowing them to live in a peaceful and harmonious surrounding on Earth. This new energy, of intense light actually affects the magnetic make-up of our whole solar system. Creating intense magnetic storms on our sun, where strong solar flares reach the Earths orbit and interfere with the magnetics within the Earth and the Human Being.
The Human body contains millions of tiny magnetic particles that interconnect through Human antennas to the Earth’s magnetic field, enabling the Human to receive and transmit consciousness which influence the physical body and all its internal systems.
The interference of the magnetic field is causing a cleansing effect on Earth, physical shifting and shaking the earth and her inhabitants, creating unusual weather patterns and within the Human Being; cleansing people from all their fears and yesterdays. It is actually the most beautiful gift that we can receive.
Intense light to naturally awaken our consciousness, changing our DNA and crystalising our molecules. Our inner light, our being is being ignited anew, clearing our body of past debris, burning away everything that no longer serves us, leaving nothing but pure love and passion within each Human Being and the Earth.
During this shift in consciousness… our Awakening is affecting our mental, emotional and physical bodies, pulling us all ways and putting us through some uncomfortable and painful times. Not only are we integrating and releasing all our own past life patterns and karma that no longer serves us, but that of all our ancestors that have lived before us. Our Body Consciousness; Body, Mind and Spirit is finding a new balance.
It is most important neither to fight nor to give in, but to trust that everything is all so perfect. This is our journey that we have chosen to live now so let’s enjoy the ride and allow our Embodied Ascension to happen quite naturally.
Physical… Aches and pains in the joints, especially neck, shoulders and back, heat sensations beyond the menopause, feeling hot and cold, feeling dizzy and shaky, vertigo, ringing in the ears, nauseous, itchy skin, red patchy skin especially the face, exhaustion and feeling tired, waking up a lot, headaches and migraine, stomach aches and indigestion, no appetite, extremes of diarrhea and constipation, eating a lot, heart palpitations, irregular heartbeat
Emotional… Crying, deep sadness, confused, nervousness, passionless
Mental… Anxious, intense dreaming, loneliness, not thinking straight, losing words, depressed
Barbara’s suggestions for more comfort
Consciously breathing in the new energy, especially in painful areas, 10 mins. a day, healthy daily eating of protein, good fats, lots of fruit and veg,
drink plenty of fresh water, moderate use of caffeine, coffee, tea and alcohol, positive and loving self talk, soaking the body in Epsom salts and lavender oil, walking in nature or some form of gentle exercise you enjoy 20 mins a day, sleep a lot… napping through the day if possible, trust yourself… even when doubt tries to creep into your mind
Barbara Franken… Creative Visionary & Master Creator
Inspiring New Energy Consciousness & Multi-Dimensional Living
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What an incredible journey Manny, Kudos to you for your courage in stepping out to BE who you really are..
Once we truly love who we really are it changes who we are from the inside out.. And so happy to read about your transformation as you get involved with co-ordinating your running club..
Many thanks Barbara for sharing Manny’s story, Sending both much love 🙂
Thankyou sue for your kind words, manny is doing so well, five years after writing this… he never looks back, such an inspiration❤️ I’m re-posting all our awakening stories, yours should be coming up soon… they are all so appropriate now that mass consciousness are waking up! Much love to you x
Thank you, I am so pleased for Manny.. 🙂 We have all come together for this moment in time.. And I learn every day 🙂 Thank you for being You and sharing and spreading love joy and light Barbara..
Much love returned <3
Thank you for posting Manny’s story. Inspiring indeed! “You were not meant to fit into society… you were meant to stand out and shine your magnificence!” I love that quote <3
Hello dear Jan, Thankyou for resonating with nanny’s story, he actually wrote it 5 years ago and is truly enjoying his life now, he is a great inspirer❤️🌈😘 much love yo you x