How my Anger was my Blessing…

‘It was a grand lightbulb moment… when I realised judgement and doubt is equally anchored in the fear of separation, annihilation & feeling powerless.’

My morning was going well, I had written the above quote for our ‘New Earth Community‘ in preparation for my weekly facebook live… then all of a sudden, life literally took me over as I felt anger embody my whole being. Thankfully Tom didn’t respond to my outbursts as he had seen them for a while now on and off. He remained quiet, being concerned but trusted me to deal with it all myself. Everything was making me feel more angry. I couldn’t take it anymore, so I did what I used to do when I was younger… storm off to my bedroom and cried on my bed for a good couple of hours. I eventually calmed down, took some deep breathes and got myself up and sat down with Tom to talk about what was happening.

I explained it was as if I was under attack and felt completely unimportant, ugly and unloved, but I would get to the bottom of it. All I needed from him was to continue loving me unconditionally.

After so many hours crying and feeling sorry for myself I sure looked a mess and decided I didn’t want to confront myself in front of the camera, so I postponed my facebook live performance!!!! Instead I gathered myself together and took it easy for the rest of the evening.

Bedtime is normally my heaven and am blessed with sleeping well, sometimes long, sometimes short, but this night as I heard Tom purring away… I felt enormous pressure in my heart space and stomach. A gigantic presence of throbbing. Wow so grand and as normal, I began to breathe deep, opening up to receive my own love, to feel it flowing through me and love me unconditionally.

After a while, I asked myself what on Earth was causing this anger to attack me so badly?

I began to breath more calmly, opening up to insights I recognised receiving before… but this time it felt different. It was as if I had opened up into a much deeper and wider space within myself… yet it no longer felt like my space. It was a space where everything existed as one interconnected whole, I saw clearly my journey as part of the magnificent tapestry of life. I felt a deep knowingness, rather than only intellectually understanding and a sense of peace consumed me knowing everything was perfectly ok.

My Insights
My first insight was as a young girl, about to become a teenager and a woman, I had began to bleed and was quite concerned…  I don’t remember so much of my childhood but I remember my dad giving me big pads to wear and a book about the birds and the bees to read. My mum must of been working or not feeling well. I missed her presence, of feeling loved and adored. We had recently moved home, away from my best friend, I was trying hard to make new friends but we all know that’s not so easy.

I was a bubbly, open person, swopping best friends a lot AND became a target for bullies.

It was during these 5 years I felt a deep loneliness; of feeling alone, unloved, unimportant AND ugly, creep into my being. Life was tough and when I didn’t get attention at home, I’d shout, slam the door and run up to my bedroom. I found most girls at school to be bullies, so I focused my attention on boys… searching for love, value and hearing that I was pretty.

My next insight was 27 years later. I had met my husband Tom 13 years before and we were enjoying a wonderful life together at home with our family and with our work. I was so happy, I’d met such a wise, kind and gentle man who adored me and loved me unconditionally. I remember crying once in his arms because I was so happy. I had joined a group class ‘Reading & Healing Energy’ to discover more about myself and the world. The world was my oyster… and then in 2004 Tom suffered 2 heart attacks and as he lay in hospital, I felt my body go into a deep shock.

My next insight was now, 13 years later, looking back and understanding how I had built my happiness around Tom… and his near death had freaked me out AND broke open a deep wound that I’d been carrying around since I was 12 years old. This had happened even though I’d begun to understand how life worked, how IAM love and how I can only make myself happy.

The wound of feeling alone, unloved & unimportant was a deep one that I know I share with all Humankind. I know this wound is deep and goes back even further, to the time Humankind chose to be separate from All That Is in order to experience knowing self, exploring and discovering Who You Truly Are. You can read & listen more about this in my post She Heals His Wound.

I realised I could of felt deeper into my wound back then, but I obviously needed to discover more depth of this wound; to feel every ounce of anger and sadness as it oozed through my body/mind for me to embrace it all and truly know I have never been separate, unloved or powerless.

An Introduction to the MasterCreator Class... She Heals His Wound

I was surrounded by a multitude of insights… Human life was being shown to me as a pack of cards and how everything is a small, individual play connected together… but one could only understand the bigger picture from a higher perspective. This was when everything seemed to come together for me as a grand lightbulb moment. My perception had expanded and I could see the whole process of the Human Game and its purpose. There were too many insights coming together to remember and share them all, but important ones are:

How essential our Human experience is, being able to feel the loving presence and compassion of a loved one AND the absence of this, knowing they are playing a crucial part in awakening the infinite flame of love within. To help each person to remember the truth of our own infinite Divine powerful light. 

How essential it is to understand, accept and honour each persons journey. It is easy to blame another… for instance, the mother. We can blame her for not instilling in her child unconditional love, to point to the love that her child is in their core for them to nurture love for them self, instead of going out there in search of love and adoration.

How essential it is for each person to understand another person… the mother, for instance has her own story, experience and acts as best she knows how. Her action is nevertheless an act of love that leaves within her child a seed of love for them to nurture love for them self.

How essential it is for each person to realise their suffering/pain is based on a untruth and is there to help them awaken to their true magnificence and power. The New Energies work differently now, it is no longer a matter of fixing a person as each person has the opportunity now to choose for them self how they want to experience life AND no one else has a right to take this experience away, unless it is asked of them.

Realising my Blessing
IAM 55 years and am grateful to have experienced this grand light bulb moment now… to realise how my anger was my blessing and transport me into this peaceful space. Knowing it all happened in perfect timing, so perfect I had already written my quote about it a few hours earlier. I knew all my own judgement and doubt about everything was all anchored in my believe of being separate, powerless and slowly dying…. I just had to allow my body/mind to feel it totally too AND transform the remnants of old sadness and anger from many lifetimes ago into a sense of peace and deep understanding.

Life is wonderful and as I feel more and more light filling my physical body/mind, life becomes easier, there is more and more to celebrate. Celebrating my Human and Divine selves coming together in total balance AND being a tiny part in the magnificent tapestry of life. Sharing with others who are ready to open up to their own loving presence and celebrate together this new adventure as multi-dimensional beings.

Thankyou Tom for giving me unconditional love and compassion these last 30 years… here’s to our next adventure together.

Barbara Franken… Creative Visionary & MasterCreator
Inspiring New Energy Consciousness

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Join the discussion and tell us your opinion.

November 27, 2017 at 14:28

Beautiful, Barbara <3 Lately I've also been having insights about my owner anger and the root of it, remembering experiences as a young child/teenager. Your words brought me peace and deeper insight. Thank you! Aleya

Barbara Frankenreply
November 28, 2017 at 09:15
– In reply to: alohaleya

Dear Aleya… I feel many of us are receiving these insights… sometimes I have wondered if my anger is not just mine but from many who remain asleep… but our awakening is allowing many to naturally awaken much quicker. Thankyou for your insights too, much love to you Barbara x

Writing to Freedomreply
November 27, 2017 at 16:23

Kudos on your insights and deepening integration of your divine and human selves. I admire your dedication to the process Barbara. Hugs!

Barbara Frankenreply
November 28, 2017 at 09:16
– In reply to: Writing to Freedom

Thankyou Brad… sometimes it feels as if IAM integrating for more than myself… it feels like part of my mission and actually makes me feel joyful. Love to you Brad x

Writing to Freedomreply
November 28, 2017 at 14:51
– In reply to: Barbara Franken

It sounds like you are living on purpose, something I’m not clear on. Kudos!

Barbara Frankenreply
December 3, 2017 at 08:52
– In reply to: Writing to Freedom

I believe you have guided yourself to where you are now… feeling happy is a good sign that you are following your path… only doubt gets in the way and confuses you, but this is the job of the small mind. Keep the intention everyday to switch on your innate joy state of being and allow it to guide your experience…❤️

Writing to Freedomreply
December 3, 2017 at 16:09
– In reply to: Barbara Franken

Thank you Barbara for the good suggestions. I’ll play along. 🙂

November 27, 2017 at 17:09

this is great title, the outcome is required in our daily journey, this is a good practice to balance our life with positive approach!!

Barbara Frankenreply
November 28, 2017 at 09:18
– In reply to: mihrank

Wow… it is definitely getting attention and thats always part of the mission… to radiate my love far and wide to help bring #NewEarth into the physical arena. Thanks so much for resonating Mihrank. Love to you, Barbara x

Mark Lanesburyreply
November 27, 2017 at 20:21

That journey is our making Barbara. I kept looking back to our youth, seeing those things being ‘unintentionally’ passed onto us by our parents, simply because that is how they grew up too.
I thought if there was a way to fix that all would be healed forever…but many, many years later I can see that this period in our lives is important. To ‘see’ and ‘feel’ that pain so that we can appreciate what we have endured and find that love within and become the love we have sought all our lives.
It is a hard journey, but in the end, a very perfect one for what we are to become. No other path will find it, but the one where we feel that pain, understand it, and accept ourselves because of it.
Great post kind lady, an expression of that acceptance, and a love most profound….yours <3

Barbara Frankenreply
November 28, 2017 at 09:23
– In reply to: Mark Lanesbury

Yes the journey is indeed our making and this was part of the insight. It has to be this way, suffering and pain included, but as we contain enough light to understand it melts all our ills away and we can move into a new adventure of unity consciousness… This is what is so special about this lifetime… we get to go on in this lifetime, instead of dying and getting a new body. We are creating our new self/life as we speak. Such exciting times… just joy. Thanks Mark for your resonating to and going through this process too… love Barbara

November 28, 2017 at 06:43

I am 55 too. And I relate to so much of this. x

Barbara Frankenreply
November 28, 2017 at 09:24
– In reply to: emergingfromthedarknight

I meant to say 55 young… cause thats how I feel. We’ve been through so much but its worth it all and now we get to create our next adventure… never to have happened before… to live an enlightened life on the physical plane AND beyond. much love to you Deborah x

November 28, 2017 at 22:21
– In reply to: Barbara Franken

me too, Barbara and love to you too. xo

Christy Breply
November 30, 2017 at 18:24

A beautiful tribute to Tom and to the unconditional love you share – in addition to calling for the release of anger and embrace of peace!

Barbara Frankenreply
December 3, 2017 at 08:56
– In reply to: Christy B

Thankyou Christy x

December 6, 2017 at 10:12

I am glad you worked through your unsettled thoughts and found peace in the end

Barbara Frankenreply
December 19, 2017 at 14:54
– In reply to: elizabeth2560

Thankyou Elizabeth… I knew these thoughts needed attention, trying to tell me something because I’m really not normally like this! AND I managed to fall into a deeper sense of peace. Happy Holiday season to you x love Barbara x

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