What AM I choosing to experience?
IAM left wondering why I feel so targeted and unwelcome in a particular Environment, so as usual I retreat and take some quiet me-time to feel into this feeling. The feeling goes very deep but I can’t seem to grasp anything and instead of becoming one with the feeling I choose to go against all my knowingness and go outside of myself to try and find an answer. I know this won’t help, in fact I know it makes my feeling worse and attracts more similar situations to me.
I see enemies all around me and an array of doubts and negative emotions pouring out of me… Unworthiness Jealousy, Ugliness, Shame, Guilt, Anger… you name it, IAM feeling it.
I become very anxious and search around for information about why I allow other people to trigger me and how I can get rid of these unwelcome emotions and doubts. I find nothing to comfort me and only manage to feel worse… and then I decide to give up and wallow in my miserable feeling of failure that is topped off with a thick layer of guilt, because I know better… for goodness sake I’ve just published a book about being free of all this unconscious living.
In our Human dual reality we are always acting out our own story based on our perception and desire in life and in order to help each other achieve and experience this, we attract each other to come and play with us… in the hope to find love and happiness.
I find it hard to believe IAM still playing the game… especially unconsciously… So what was going on? Was there still a part of me that felt unloved or was I just feeling another person’s feeling of being unloved?
So where do I draw the line between my story and the other persons, where do I separate the two?
And within this question, lay my answer. I know very well there is indeed no separation and as Divine beings of pure love we play the different roles in order to honour and love another unconditionally. Being in the presence of others, no matter what the situation, I can choose in each moment to either be affected or not affected because I have that much power. I can choose in each moment to either reflect the love that IAM or the failure IAM.
As a Master Creator, I have obviously been ‘testing myself’ that I clearly understand my new role and how I have a conscious choice in how I want to live my life; no matter how others want to play and tease me and I can allow my light to shine on any darkness that is ready to be released from within myself and my fellow sisters and brothers.
Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year… and remember, you always have a choice too.
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Join the discussion and tell us your opinion.
Isn’t it great that just becoming quiet for a moment, the answers come.
Happy Holidays Barbara!
Blessings and Peace
It took me a second time of quietness to know my answer… So perseverance is always to be encouraged. Love to you this Christmastime X barbara
Do you still want no comments? I will wait for your reply. Or is this a test of duality? <3
Hello dear linda… I found my answer… So simple… Just to choose in each moment whatever I want to experience.. And of course I chose love. Love for myself and the friends who tease me, but whether I continue being in their life is another choice, I feel it’s time to move where only the sound of joy beats in my heart and laughter from my voice. I always welcome comments, delighted to hear from my friends. Merry Chritmas and Happy New Year Linda xxx barbara
This is such an honest representation of the journey towards knowing. . Felt like this innumerable times…but slowly, ever so slowly, equanimity is becoming easier. Came here from Amy Rose’s page. Glad I did 🙂
Thankyou so much for coming, AmyRose is my divine sister, as you are too… Welcome as my new friend… Xxx barbara, love this wonderful day of the solstice…
Beautiful post.. Yes there is no separation Barbara.. Sending you greetings for a Blessed Christmas with your family.. Love and Hugs
Love Sue <3
Barbara I just reviewed your blog! Here is the link to the post!
Thanks Jason… Much appreciated barbara
Barbara, I am reading your book and tears have fallen in the process. Your book is making me think and see, and feel. I used to feel ALL THE TIME my magnificence and walked with a knowingness that what I felt and thought, I would manifest it. And I did.
Then it seems a few years back, I slipped into a place where darkness and anger and loss and grief took precidence and my ability to feel the LOVE vibration has been only sporatic, never staying as it once did. I feel like such a hypocrite for all the that I really do know and write over at Petals, I no longer am FEELING or experiencing. The magic seems gone. And in its place seems a place I do not like at all.
My Dad’s death last January broke the camel’s back. I just don’t seem able to rise above the mundane. The only respite I do get is when I am with my camera. Yes we are walking duality yet my ability to rise above the mundane seems broken. Yes I have learned so much in this brokenness and emptiness, yet to not be able to access that feeling of Love Bliss, that Flow, is so missed by me.
I know I must manually switch in order to rise above yet the shackles that I feel that are pulling me down are so strong, I don’t know if I can free me. Is it tears that need to be shed? I know I have not been able to grieve my losses, that I do know and with everything being connected, I know I am only attracting more pain to myself.
Grasping to express myself here …. 2015 was a horror of a year. My “fear” of allowing myself to grieve is what I believe is holding me back from doing so, for in going to that place which is so deep, I don’t know if I can come back. Yet I must in order to move forward.
Your book is really helping me. And I really thank you. Bless you from the bottom of my Heart. <3
Sometimes it’s just time to embrace the parts of ourself that come up after being hidden for many a lifetime, without judgement, only unconditional love before release or transformation… We can say similar about grieving because dear ones reflect parts of ourself that need to be released too…
You are the light and the darkness and your beautiful website radiates your light that is always there for you when you feel ready.
Give yourself permission to grieve because something within wants to be acknowledged and released… The old pattern of the dominant male and the submissive women? comes to mind.
2016 is going to be a joyous year for you, I feel it… Love to you AmyRose xx barbara p.s give me a nudge when you’ve finished the book as I would love you to write a little something about how you’ve resonated with it. Xx
I’m up and down like a yo-yo! Mostly it’s not others so much as it’s self inflicted. Part of life’s rich pattern 🙂 Wishing you a happy and healthy New Year, Barbara!
I’ve realized it doesn’t matter how much we yo-yo as long as we are conscious about making the choices that cause this… Yes here’s to a great 2016, full of joyful conscious creations X barbara
Wishing you all the very best for 2016 Barbara.. Love and Blessings in all you do xx Sue
Happy New Year Sue… May you create all your dreams in 2016 xxx barbara
Oh, Barbara…I resonate with this post and many times it is hard to tell if I have picked up on other’s energy or if it is mine! I’m so happy that we have connected 🙂 Best wishes for this new year that is about to begin! ♡
You’ve had an amazing year Barbara ~ a little time to sit back and see all you’ve accomplished is a beautiful way to bring in the New Year. Congratulations on your successes and the best to you with your writing in the New Year.
Thankyou so much for your kind words and best wishes, this years desires are beginning to bubble up in excitement… Love barbara
thank you so much for your down and dirty, real-deal words. Modeling the process helps us all lose less time looping around in circles of confusion and pain. xo! marga
unless you are my husband who is now fully into his awakening and letting go of everything he stood for… a wonderful intense time it is… love to you dear maria, Barbara
Seeing you have cleared all this IN THIS Now! I was able to read months laterand seeing the paved road from curved road to full consciousness ahead..amen Heart to Heart Robyn
Its been a long road and its still unfolding, but now with lots of love and joy for #memymagnificentself… Love to you, Barbara