I’ve been having a time of my life in a hot and humid Ft Lauderdale, spending lots of time with Alexander my adorable grandson. We have been very creative together, creating a giant heart space for Alexander to hang pictures of his loved ones… mum, dad, sister, aunty, uncle, grandma’s and grandad… and his dreams and wishes… He loves to be a police officer and work with firemen. He created a picture of his new home and boat he wants in his life. Alexander loves to play with trucks, building bricks and trains… so grandma helped him create a magnificent railway track, a space for him to play with his trains, tracks and bridges. Last but not least we have found a wooden treasure chest to store his favourite things… this we will be painting in the next few days before we return home to Spain.
During this visit grandma arranged for a nanny and cleaner to come and help in the home when everyone else is at work. When the time was just perfect Beth (nanny) and Alisa (cleaner) came into our life. (I’ve been trying to find help for sometime, but obviously it was too soon and someone wasn’t convinced it was necessary) Alexander’s new home will also appear for the perfect price at the most perfect time. We all have the patience and trust in the timing and the most perfect new home to be available for us all.
I have so enjoyed observing Alexander living in the present moment, truly indulging and enjoying himself. There is no yesterday and tomorrow is unimportant. NOW is the time to create and play, learn the ABC & 123, have swimming lessons and LATER (an extension of the present moment is a great time for ice-cream). We have enjoyed visiting the park, young art museum, toys r us and the beach… to collect trash… it is after all what police officer’s must do when they need to collect fingerprints.
Sometimes when grandma tried to control Alexander, he reacted quite boldly… reminding me to interact with him and everyone around in a more compassionate and independant way. I took the hint and have been looking at my need to control? Why do I do this? Why can I not just trust that everyone else knows what’s right for them and just continue enjoying my life?
Control is an old way that I and most of humankind gain power, through pushing and forcing things to happen according to our own perception… which is actually very limited and an unloving way of behaving, as we take creation or a new way of doing/being away from another. Being in control makes us feel great and important in the presence of others, but belittles another. Humankind has programmed the mind to survive, no matter what, which has in turn shut down the spontaneous and new ways to experience life… until we become aware of this habitual behaviour and choose to create our life from a balanced heart and mind with consideration for ourself, another and most of all for CHANGE and CREATION.
If it’s one thing I have learned during my life is that I really like to FEEL independent and create my life how I desire it to be… to feel free in everything IAM. This cannot be achieved when a person continuously trys to mould another into a shape that fits only our own need to nurture our magnificent self.
What is good for me must be good for everyone else and it was my responsibility to nurture Alexander’s sense of his magnificent and creative self. So when I slipped back into ‘control mode’… I took some deep conscious breaths, embraced my old need to control others and situations… it had served me well… but now I was AWAKE and knew there was a better way for myself and others to live in balance and harmony with each other. I allowed my need to control to transmute into compassion and freedom for myself. Afterall I was an example of living in FREEDOM, full of light (enlightenment) and enjoying each moment.
The more I allowed myself to live in a space of peace and freedom, IAM connected with the part of me that has always been there, enjoying the human experience and waiting patiently for Barbara’s attention. For me to be fully aware of the integration that is naturally happening to humankind now. The integration of my soul (my divine essence or light body & mind) and physical being. My divine light body & mind absorbing my physical body & mind and birthing my divinehumanself.
My Soul is in ‘soul charge’ of the integration, all my human self has to do is be aware and allow it all to happen… Allow myself to be completely free of the limited mind and old and unloving ways of being and be the creator and enlightened divine being I truly am.
What is Enlightenment?
The human mind will never understand enlightenment because it is limited, never satisfied and always wants more. Enlightenment for me is to FEEL and CONNECT with my deep desire for freedom, the pure awareness of my sovereignty and allow myself to express my true voice, my magnificent self here in this reality. It’s never been done before… IAM allowing myself to be a new standard…
Yes IAM allowing myself to be FREE and ENLIGHTENED. Are you?
We can be aware of and allow our enlightenment… when we awaken from the 3D dense and limited reality we live in now and realise that there is more to ourself than meets the eye… To read some amazing true awakening experiences you can download the free e-book I made together with my wordpress friends… Enjoy…
Barbara Franken… Inspiring and living in the New Energy Consciousness…